God is faithful and He works everything together for the good of those who love Him- that's me!
Josh and I are trusting God throughout this rough weekend, because He knows what I need and just when I need it. Yesterday, they were able to get in touch with a doctor and they ordered the chemo- I was overjoyed! All they were waiting on was my blood work. We were fully assuming that they would rise like last week. Well, the blood work came back and my ANC was .32. Of course, I was disappointed and could not receive chemo again yesterday. We ate lunch, went to whole foods, and took a nap in time to wake up for church.
It has been a whirlwind of emotions from hopefulness to disappointment again and again. The Lord never changes. I can depend on Him and His unfailing love when I can't depend on anything else. I have no idea how people go through cancer without a relationship with the One who holds their life in His hands.
We went to an amazing church service last night and God spoke to the both of us in very specific mighty ways. The church embraced us and once again the body of Christ was shown in a powerful way. The pastor spoke on miracles...I obviously am praying for a miracle and believe that one will take place in my body. However, I do not want to seek the promise-giver or miracle-maker for the miracle or the promise. I obviously am believing and claiming that, but that is not the reason I seek God. I praise and seek Him because He is worthy of it- just because of who is is- His very character. I am seeking Him for Him...not just for His miracle working power. This was reiterated in the message we heard last night.
We stayed in a hotel for the first 2 nights here and of course thought we would only be here one night. Last night, we moved from our hotel to a special friend's friend's house (Mr. Clint and Ms. Rose Ann). They have an apartment attached to her house and it has been such a blessing to have those opening up their home to ours. Last week we stayed at one of my mom's friend's house from college (Ms. Tammy)....people have been so generous to us..we are so grateful.
We are sitting in the lobby at MDA waiting to see what the doctor wants us to do. We are assuming blood work again, hopefully followed by chemo if my white cell count raises. Please pray with us that they raise, if it is God's will.
I have been challenged this weekend to be thankful in all circumstances. This is a command by God and I will obey.
"Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful In all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
I am thankful and praising God for this setback. I am not sure why, but I will be thankful and praise Him for everything. Thank you for joining us again in prayer!