Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Publicly Re-Committing to this War. A God war.

These last few days we have been at war with nothing other than a tangible attack of hell/satan/demons (pick one). Aly has been having some physical symptoms that are putting her at a point of fear that is as strong as we have dealt with in the past 17 months.

If I'm not careful this post could literally be the longest post I've made so I will get to the point. 

When this journey started it was as if you dropped me in a room of bad guys and I just started swinging. I didn't know what for sure I was aiming at or what I planned to do to it but I was just attempting to fight. As I re-read some of our first post I can feel what those days were like. Below are parts of posts that we made the first week of Aly's diagnosis.

October 26th, 2011 
Aly- "Lord have mercy on me. See how my enemies torment me. Snatch me back from the jaws of death. Save me so I can praise you publicly at Jerusalem's gates, so I can rejoice that you have rescued me." Psalm 9:13-14

October 27th, 2011
Josh- The God that put us here will deliver us. 

October 28th, 2011
Josh- Cancer: today my wife begins physical war with you, this is not a lady you want any part of-fierce, determined, steadfast, persevering. I look forward to watching her beat you. 

At this point though the enemy is crystal clear in my mind. I know him well. We have had many conversations which changes the score completely. satan/hell/demons, you have come against my wife. We knew that when we began affecting other peoples lives with GODS story of HEALING my wife that you would come full force at us. you are talented. HOWEVER...

 Jesus said in Luke 10:18-19
18 “Yes,” he told them, “I saw Satan fall from heaven like lightning! 19 Look, I have given you authority over all the power of the enemy, and you can walk among snakes and scorpions and crush them. Nothing will injure you.

Deuteronomy 31:8
Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

Isaiah 58: 8-9a
Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
    and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness[a] will go before you,
    and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.
Then you will call, and the Lord will answer;
    you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.

Here is an excerpt from a blog Aly had started before she was diagnosed. This was written on September 1, 2011 (48 days before diagnosis).

In the book of Job, Satan comes before the Lord and God points out his faithful servant, Job. It is then when Satan suggests that Job will abandon his faith that the Lord challenges that and sets out to prove him wrong. There is such a huge significance of Satan appearing before the Lord. This shows us that he (yes, even Satan) is under the divine control of God. He cannot act on his own, but must receive permission from God- wow! As scary as it might be to think that Satan is constantly trying to throw us off, it is also comforting knowing that he is not independent of God's control. In just this first bit of Job, we see that Satan causes bad things to happen to us, but it is God who allows it to happen. The Lord helps us in the midst of our struggle that He allows, in order to deliver us and conquer our enemies- once again proving his sovereignty over the world and the devil!

God was prepping Aly for the attack.

In closing,

satan/hell/demons  you have no place in our life. As my wife sleeps right now I rebuke you from touching her in any way. Fear, pain which seem to be your items of choice for now, be gone from my wife in the name of JESUS. There is no place for you here. I commit only through Gods help to cover her. Aly WILL be like a FRUITFUL GRAPEVINE planted within MY home. That's the B-I-B-L-E (spell it out, it sounds better). 

As a great man once said when asked by an adversary, "how big a boy are you?" well I'm about 5'5" (depends on the shoes) and 141 lbs dripping wet, I'm small but I'm wiry. 

I understand I can't stand up to hell/satan/demons alone. I just so happen to have help and my intent is to speak that into life. Jesus, I understand we cannot fight the power of darkness alone with physical threats (though it is fun) so I am asking you to rebuke the attack on my wife. You have control over satan/ hell/ demons and I believe you have, you are and you will remove them from our life. As you said in Deut 31:8 that you will neither fail or abandon us. We are resting on your promises.

God is working in our lives to refine us for HIS purposes. Just today I had my schedule cleared up even more. hell/satan/ demons- WE (GOD and me) have re-declared incase you forgot that we do understand what is at stake and due to that we will DESPERATELY be on the attack against you. 

Pay attention here, this is big. All the previous comments by me are about the attack I plan against evil. Those are worldly responses by a wounded, hurt man. I am leaving them there as visible proof that God is clearing my mind of me and what I want to do for my wife. Once again, get out of the way Josh. This is not a weight you are to carry. Give it over. THE attack will not be at satan/hell/demons from me but a move from me toward further full devotion to God. I will rest under Gods mighty hand. God, who controls hell/satan/demons is waging war toward them on our behalf. I am asking God to act in a mighty way in the coming hours as Aly sleeps. Please wage war on evil that would attack her, give Aly rest. I rebuke you hell/satan/demon in the name of JESUS. there is no place in our life, house, bed or in my wife's body.

Thank you for sending your son to die for our sins that we may have eternal life. We accept your promises, we will live in them. Just as you chose Job for satan to test because you knew what would come of that, Aly is the same. God please continue to mold us for YOUR plan. 

We don't have it figured out but we are desperate for you GOD.


Ginny Evans said...

Josh, praying and standing in agreement with you and Aly!! She is a daughter of the King, an Heir to the Throne of God and NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST HER WILL PROSPER IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!!! Praying for both of you to have peace that passes all understanding! Love to you both!

emilyjeanmcgarvey said...

Hold on tight to His promises, Josh & Aly!!! Nothing can separate you from Him!

Mands said...

(I've been following you from the beginning of your story though we do not personally know each other...my sister does:)
Praying Isaiah 59:19
When the enemy comes in like a flood the Spirit of the Sovereign Lord raises up a standard against him! Or as another version says The Lord will DRIVE HIM BACK.
Praying for peace that goes past what your brains are understanding and that you truly feel His hand upon you Psalm 139:5

Michael and Christi Fox said...

Oh wow, this is the third time I have attempted to post this...Satan is trying hard. I will continue until it goes through.
I am standing with you watching anxiously for victory over this battle, for we know the war has already been WON!
Also praying Psalm 91 over you both. For months, well maybe a year or more, little Michael would ask us to "put angels round him" as we were tucking him into bed. He was in a sense asking for Psalm 91 to be prayed over him. The moment I realized this it about knocked me down because his Aunt Jenny woke up early early one morning (Jenny does not wake up early at all) praying Psalm 91 over our family, but especially David Michael, not long before we left for China. She texted me that very morning telling me about it and encouraged me to do the same. So I looked up the Psalm and Wow, there it was in verse 11 "For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go" (even China). He then changed his wording. He would ask us to pray that God would "tect (protect) him and his brother and his mommy and daddy, etc. Now, he prays himself. A typical prayer of his goes about like this, "Dear Jesus, I ask you to put your angels around this house and tect us. Tect Mommy and Daddy and Sam and Daniel and this whole house and all of the people in Darbonne (our subdivition) and Lost Liver Landing (our road name is Lost River Landing). Please give (forgive) us and give us your strength and your power and don't let any evil come in this house." (then he lists our subdivision and our road again and asks that no evil come or go there either). This child has been Jesus to me in my lowest hours and reminds me of truth sometimes by just speaking it directly to me or sometimes through his requests to God. I tell you all of that to one, let you know you will be added to Little Michael's prayer list, and two, encourage you with Psalm 91 and let you know I will also be inserting your names and be praying it over you both. I remember Mrs. Patti McCurry encouraging you with this passage of scripture the night we honored you at Angie's right after Aly was diagnosed.
Proud of what God is doing and has done in you, Josh. He is shining, seeing more of Him, less of you. This is His desire. Thank you for being obedient and getting out of the way.
Aly, my father in law told me God told him that you were his Job, after praying and crying for you just after you were diagnosed. I couldn't believe what I read in this post from your blog before you were diagnosed. God is so amazing!! You are an amazing woman, Aly, a child of the Most High. I am praying and praying and praying. I love you dearly, friend.

Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day. Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday. Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you. If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home. For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.” (Psalms 91:5-7, 9-11, 16 NLT)

Anonymous said...

I briefly knew Aly during her first year at LSU and my husband is close to a family member of hers. I cannot believe this has happened to her and we are praying so hard for you guys. I like hearing the "specifics" so we know exactly what to pray for. Please keep us updated. I just learned of this blog and the last post has me worried. I cannot imagine what you guys are going through. You are both wise beyond your years and are handling this season of suffering with such grace and dignity. God will reward you in the end. Praying that you continue to fight the fight, keep the faith, and win the race!

Anonymous said...

Amen and amen, Josh. Sooo proud of your unyielding determination to fight the fight of faith! Agreeing with you and sweet Aly, to cast down vain imaginations, and every lofty thing, that would attempt to exalt itself above the truth and knowledge of God and His Word. Let GOD arise and His enemies be scattered, in Jesus' name! ms janis

Erin said...

I'm really, really sorry you guys are struggling so much. He will get you through this, too!