Saturday, September 22, 2012

Sowing my seed...

2 weeks came quickly for my next plastic surgery appointment! My mom drove me down and had a check-up appointment on Thursday. I still have my last drain in, but we should hopefully be able to take that out soon. I was so thankful to know that my doctor was super pleased with my wound healing! To me, it looked better, but I never know until they see it if it is healing as it should, and it was. Praise God! So, I was able to get expanded on both sides on Thursday. I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to, so that was a blessing. My left breast is tight because it hasn't been expanded since May and with my back muscle pulled forward (underneath my armpit), it is just tender. Not bad at all...more just weird feeling. So, it was a great appointment with my plastic surgeon. He said everything looked great, and I will see him Thursday again. We will expand again on Thursday. So thankful to God for these good plastic surgery appointments, when for some time, we left disappointed at these appointments. I'm learning so much about patient endurance.

Hebrews 10: 36 "Patient endurance is what you need now, so you will continue to do God's will. Then you will receive all that he has promised."

I know I will receive all he has promised. I am going to patiently wait for him to fulfill those promises. I am learning that fire really does refine. Through the fire, through my pain, I am being refined. For that I am grateful. But it has not been fun or easy. The joy of the Lord is my strength.

I have felt so weak and weary lately. Wishing that I would have been given a different seed to sow, but I know that is not my heart. Even the second that I write that down, I want to erase it because I am a different person than I was almost a year ago. God has entrusted me with this seed, and I will sow it as He sees fit.  I am slowly still learning to sow the seed that God has allowed me to have and what that looks like for Josh and I. I want to make Him proud, and I never want to doubt God. I am learning that it's ok to be weak. The Lord has supernaturally been my strength throughout this entire process, and because of that, I rarely ever felt weak, but now...Oh my, yes. I am learning to boast about my weaknesses, just like Paul did. His grace is ALL I need. I am pleading the blood of Jesus over my life. 

2 Corinthians 12:9 "Each time he said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me."

The enemy has continued to attack me with different "symptoms" and it is scary. VERY scary. I am holding fast to my confession of faith, that he who promised is faithful. He is faithful!!! These symptoms have led to a chest X-ray that I will have either on Wednesday or Thursday when I head to Houston for my expansions. Please pray that these symptoms will go away in the name of Jesus. I cast down all imaginations, and command my body to line up with God's word, but I need you all. I've always known I couldn't do this alone, but I feel like I need you all now more than ever---probably because I feel so weak. Also please pray that this X-ray is completely clear. It is very common that ribs can get broken during breast surgery, so if it shows a broken rib, I will be one happy girl!!! 

"Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise." Hebrews 10:23

I have no idea of when we will get the results of the X-ray, but it should be pretty quick. I expect great news and BEG for your prayers. 

Don't forget!!!! Race for the cure is THIS Saturday, September 29th. I still have not been able to run because I still have this stinking drain in!! So, not sure how much running I'll be able to do, but I will try my best. The race starts at 8:00a.m., but activities will be going on starting at 6:30a.m.. If you sign up online by Tuesday, you will get a $5 discount. Don't forget to wear your Aly's fight shirt!!

I love you all. Thank you for filling in the gap for me when I am weak and weary. Just as Aaron and Hur had to hold up Moses' hands when he grew tired in order to defeat the Amalekites, I need you to do the same for me. The BEST thing you can do for me is pray. You may want to talk to me, or hug me, or share something with me (which are all needed and wonderful), but the thing I NEED most is prayer. Thank you for praying.


Simply Sarah said...

I pray for you on and off throughout most days, and I always keep up with your blog. I just wrote a blog last week that was similar to your writings of learning that fire really does refine,and you are being refined through your pain and weakness:

I hope it helps, and know that people you don't even know are paying for you!

Anonymous said...

Praying for good reports, faith that can move mountains, and wisdom for your whole medical team! Amen and amen. Ms Janis

Brandie and Mark said...

Hey y'all, hope everything is going well. We've had some technology problems and lost your contact info. Shoot me an email when you have a chance.

Brandie and Mark

Karen said...

I'm so sorry that this has been your 'seed to sow!" But I don't know anyone who could have sown the seed you have been given to sow, with any more grace, dignity,faith and optimism! You are certainly entitled to feel weak and weary. Through all of your trials you have been a shining light to all the rest of us, with your faithful spirit. May God give you peace as you await another test. We will be praying for you, for good results, and peace and rest for you and Josh. We love ya'll! Karen & Don

Aly Taylor said...

Thank you so much. The Lord is my strength and my song! Love you guys!

Aly Taylor said...

Sarah, it helps more than you know. I enjoyed reading your blog. God is so awesome at connecting and putting things on our hearts to share. Thank you for sharing and praying for me.

Aly Taylor said...

You are THE best. Love you.

Aly Taylor said...

Thanks for letting us know. Praying for brandie and her recovery. Celebrating the awesome news!!!