I wanted to keep you all updated on what is going on with me. So the skin that looked like it may be dying has continued to get worse. Today it looks like the expander is about to be exposed and my Physician's Assistant believes it will be exposed very soon, if not today.
So, we are heading to Houston tonight and will see her first thing in the morning. My plastic surgeon is out of town, but will be back tomorrow night. She is conferring with him so they can come up with a plan on what needs to be done to get me back healthy. It looks like I will have the back-flap surgery on Wednesday or Friday...just not sure what day just yet. I should find out tomorrow and I will let you all know.
I have been given much peace about the surgery and my whole situation. God has really worked on me emotionally this weekend and reminded me to trust him. I am thankful that he prevented this from happening during radiation, because my radiation would have been interrupted. I have wondered, why now? Because if something were to go wrong, it "should" have happened earlier, but I believe he was shielding me from interfering with radiation.
There are many benefits from the back flap surgery. My breast will look much more natural and the chances of long-term success with no complications are very, very high. I am not sure on this, but it looks like they will be doing final reconstruction on my right side. Because I was already fully expanded, they should be able to put in my final implant and I should be "done" on that side, so that is a plus. Had I not been fully expanded, they would need to put an expander with the back flap and then exchange it later. They may still need to do that, as I will gain more information tomorrow, but I think they will be able to go straight to an implant. So, if we go through with the back flap surgery on the right side this week, only one breast will be operated on come December or January, so that's a plus too.
We are choosing to see the positives in the this and trusting the Lord 100%. He sees the whole picture when I can see just what's ahead. I will not worry about tomorrow, for today has enough worries of its own!
Matt. 6: 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
When I had an ultrasound back in January and there was no change in the lymph node size, I was a little discouraged. One of my wonderful friends, Kelly, texted me that the end of my story is healed and whole. Even though that ultrasound wasn't the news I wanted to hear, I had to focus on the end of the story. That is what we are doing now. The end of my story is a cancer-free life and reconstructed breasts that look as close to my old self as possible. Thankful for people that remind me of this.
So, Josh and I are heading out tonight. Please pray for our minds to be guarded and for the Lord to give us peace and joy. Please pray for my doctor, Dr. Villa, and his P.A. Alisha as they discuss what is the best option for me. Please pray that my surgery is as painless as possible and I will have full strength in my back where that muscle is removed. Also, pray for a wonderful, long-lasting outcome!
I will update tomorrow as we know when surgery will be and what exactly will be done in surgery. Thank you all for praying. Oh, and here is a picture of what we came home to last week. This absolutely made our night. As we pulled up to our house, it was decorated with balloons and had a huge fruit basket waiting for us. The Remsbergs and the Borders welcomed us home with the biggest smiles on our faces. As we pulled up, Josh said, "We have the best friends ever." It's true! Here is a picture below:)