Monday, February 13, 2012

Ready for Thursday!

I am SO ready for Thursday!! After Thursday, I will only have 2 more chemo treatments!!!! I am SO ready to be done. I will have 14 of 16 treatments done!!!!

I finally got results back on my ultrasound (from 3 weeks ago), and the lymph nodes shrunk 35%. So, from my entire time on Taxol, my lymph nodes shrunk 60%!! I was so thankful and relieved. I am so expectant for this Thursday. I have an ultrasound first thing in the morning and I expect wonderful results. This will be my first check-up on this new chemo. I am praying and believing it is killing every last bit of cancer.

These last 3 weeks have seemed a lot longer than usual. While I am thankful to be home for 3 weeks at a time, it has been an adjustment and sometimes more time on my hands can be bad. Although I haven't had much downtime, the times I am doing things, often my mind wanders and thinks about my cancer, stage, lymph nodes, mastectomy, radiation, and fear of reoccurrence. I am confident that when I am healed, I will be healed forever, so that the cancer will never return; however, anything I read on my type of cancer has so much about reoccurrence.

The type of cancer I have is called "triple-negative", which means that my cancer is not hormone-sensitive, which also means it is not responsive to hormone-targetted therapy, which is typically what treatment for breast cancer is targeted toward. About 10-20% of women with breast cancer are triple negative. This type of cancer tends to be more aggressive and more likely to re-occur. The first 2 years after ending treatment are the "scariest", but 5 years after treatment is a big hurdle to get past for any breast cancer survivor.

I KNOW I will be healed and will live a long, healthy life, but the statistics and information can be discouraging. I limit my reading and read more from the book of LIFE- God's word. I trust in it wholeheartedly and am desperate and dependent on God's promises.

"It is the Spirit who gives Life, ... the words that I speak to you are Spirit, and they are Life." John 6:63

Please continue to pray that I am healed and whole in Jesus' name. Please also pray that cancer never returns to my body. We also know that another hurdle will be deciding when to try to start a family post-treatment. Of course, we want to start a family very soon, but there will be precautions and hurdles that my doctor and medical team will advise, and we are just not sure how long that time will officially be. Because I am triple negative, and will not respond to hormonal-therapy, I am not a candidate for Tamoxifen (a breast cancer pill), that typically most breast cancer survivors take for 5 years post-treatment that help to prevent re-occurrence. So, this means that there is nothing I will be taking medically to prevent the cancer from reoccurring. I will be eating crazy-healthy and exercising daily to remain as healthy as possible, but that is all I can do to prevent reoccurrence (outside of praying, believing, and claiming complete healing for the rest of my life).

So, in some ways this is great news, because if I was taking Tamoxifen after treatment, I would have to wait 5 years to try to get pregnant, so a part of me is excited that I wouldn't have to wait that long! But, there's no telling what my doctors will tell me in regards to waiting for a baby. We are just praying that God will give us peace and lead us as we look down that road. I refuse to live in fear...not only because it would be misery, but because God's word tells me not to fear... I will trust Him with my life and future.

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I am just getting so ready for chemo to be over... it has gone by quickly, but I am just so very ready for it all to be over. I know it will be here soon. I am just ready:)

I am still feeling great. I have just been tired and my nails are still suffering. I have lost my left big toe nail and my right one looks like it is about to fall off. My nails look so disgusting and it looks as if some of those may fall off soon as well. It really isn't that bad- it is just more of a nuisance. Little to no nausea, no mouth sores, no stomach problems!!! Praise the Lord! I will take ugly and sore nails any day:)

Please continue to pray for us, every time you think of us. We are learning every day that although my healing will soon be apparent, this tough road is far from done for us. I will see an oncologist for the rest of my life! We will see doctors often, but we will constantly be reminded of what God has done.

We will update after our doctor visits and chemo on Thursday. Love you...


Anonymous said...

So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. Romans 10:17 -- Keep in the WORD of GOD to keep your faith strong.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8

It's easier said than done I am sure but keeping your heart and mind on these things can help keep your spirit strong.

May the God of Abraham stretch out his Mighty Hand and heal you from the top of your head to the tips of your toes.May you know that you have been set free from sickness. In the Name of JESUS

Revelation 12:11 "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death."

Anonymous said...

You never cease to amaze me! Praying for you everytime you cross my mind! ~ Laurie Payne

Mands said...

You don't know me personally but I have kept up with your blog since I first heard about you from my sis who does know you :) Reading today made me think of two verses and since God's Word does not return void and it does accomplish what it was sent out to do (Isaiah 55:11)....

O LORD, if you heal me, I will be truly healed; if you save me, I will be truly saved. My praises are for you alone! Jeremiah 17:14 (NLT)

"For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. WITH HIS LOVE HE WILL CALM ALL YOUR FEARS. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs." Zephaniah 3:17 (NLT)

Melanie said...

Aly, I haven't met you yet but I'm Arielle's mom next door. I've been readying your posts and praying for you. When I read today's post, I wanted to offer a free painting session to you when you have some down time and want to have some fun. I have everything you need (canvas, paint, brushes and ideas). Next week I have some free days. Just holler at me - and you can also find me on facebook. :)

patkountz said...

I am printing this one out and putting it where I will see it several times a day. I will give thanks in half my prayers that God has made you so strong. The other half will be saved for requesting further remission and happy, healthy children. My Uncle Cecil tells me how intelligent and strong you are, how lucky Josh was to find someone like you. I didn't remind him that it wasn't was God. In my heart, I know he knows it!

Paula said...

Aly, I am praying for you today and every time you cross my mind - which is often. Even before your illness I thought of you a lot! How could I not, with reminders in Erin's room of the two funniest girls on the planet! Your positive attitude is a blessing to me and I thank God for the healing He is bringing you. Love you lots! Paula R.

Hutton Parker said...

Hey Aly this is Hutton. You just keep your head up and try to stay positive becouse i know that everything is gona work out. You have been a huge inspiration to me and allot of people. i will definatly keep you in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Hi Aly,

We just heard about your ongoing fight and wanted you to know we are praying for you too. I think my mom heard from your mom. Your folks lived next to my Grand in BR and we have fond memories of them and Ellis. Grand loved y'all so much and enjoyed hearing about y'all as you grew up. Tell your mom and sis hey for us. Sorry for the late arrival, but you are all in our prayer network now. Though I'm sure Grand has been on top of this for a while. : )
With Love, Amy Pinkston Odom

Caroline said...
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Caroline Gardner said...

Thinking about you and praying for you still, Aly... Hope you enjoyed the Mardi Gras weekend :)
- Caroline